Special needs bowling:)

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Well today could very well be one of the most rewarding days of my life. i LOVE special needs thats why i attend soemthing special needs related once every week. I feel like in my life thats sort of where god has called me to go because those are the people my heart longs to help. the people who cant help themselves. Who i go to teach or help but in the end wind up teaching me. the people that work through so many obsticles in life yet are the peole who christ is seen most eveidently in.  So today at the bowling alley i had three girls.. Dana, who couldnt hear and wasnt a big talker or even remotely social but yet kept a beauitful smile on her face all day long. Gena, who was like a parrot she repeated everything i said..if you dont believee that people dont hear what you say or what you say doesnt effects people. then have a go with Gena she's living proof that there are little ears out there. And last but not least Darichelle. Darichelle was by far my favorite (sorry but i picked a favorite frown on me if you must) but i was sooooo fascinated by her. she was amazing. at first glance she was to the naked eye... completely normal... but inside was a broken girl with so much pain in her past and so little incentive to pick up move on and live life. darichelle started out sweet and quaint.. but as time went on and she could see that i was falling in love with her and her story she opened up and let her life spill to me and her heart. Darichelle was born on december 20. she is 25 years old. and she hasnt always been handicap. she was born and raised in a christian home. she started out as a methodist and then converted to what she called a "babtist christian" hehe. (did i mention this chick said some funny stuff) then at 16 after her life had come to a chaotic mess of neverending pain and stress from her family, to school, to track, to being told she had no friends, to her mom telling ehr she was fat, Darichelle tried to take her own life. She pulled into the middle of an intersection and waited for a car to come and was eventually hit by a car in her drivers side door. Leaving her with exstensive brain damage, hair line fractured hip. metal plate in her head, glass scares covering her body. Darichelle was now state classified as "SPECIAL". her life never to be the same again. she was in the hospital for 3 months 3 weeks of that in a drug induced coma. And one year ago was diasognosed with bipolar disease i began to ask her why why did she do all this.. and she said i just didnt feel right in life soemthing wasnt right and i didnt want to be here anymore. But then she said but i guess im still here for a reason... YES! that was my chance jesus card here i come. i ask her do you know why your still here? she said no not really.. I said darichelle you have a purpose and reason in life, your here by miracle you being alive is proof that someone bigger than us wants you here to do something.. she said.. welll im just here to bowl... (I LAUGHED) but i said no do you know that no matter how bad you feel or if you feel like no one loves you.. guess what someone always does and always will... and she looked at me smiled and said oh yeah... JESUS. like the lightbulb in her head finally clicked that her childhood teachings of jesus really did apply .  Once off the deep subject of jesus and faith and her knowing she's loved she began to tell me her views on life friends and dating. so here are some of her funnier moments...
- me- "darichelle do you have a boyfriend?"
-darichelle "ooooo, HE** no! i dont date, boys are stupid and a wasssssttteee of time" "and besides....boys think im kinda.... weird..."
-"girls are soooo dramatic"
-"Like cry me a river"
-"once... my mom made me go on a diet! but i just told her.... NO i DONT WANNA BE A TWIG LIKE YOU MOMMMM!"

all in all she wound up telling me im her only true friend that she felt she could confied in. I really fell in love with this girl :)

so october 25... SUCCESS :)

Andy.

So on the first day i walked into the chapel thinking yayyy another spiritual emphasis week. On account of my past spiritual emphasis weeks haven't been so great. but over all. I liked it. Andy was my favorite thus far. The first day was my favorite. That day was my favorite due to the fact that it really made me think. He posed the questions and my brain responded to them. He ask how do we know the sky is blue? and my mind said wow what if what he is asking throws off my entire beliefs. becuase if i cant even tell what color the sky is... How can i prove that god is god. that hes real. that hes mine.. that he died and rose again. So at first i was afraid to ask but then i realized... this dude andy is more than likely smarter than me so i stuck with him. then he ask how do you know your alive? and instantly.... i reached for my neck to check for my pulse. and. and. and. it was still there. thumping away as usual. i was still warm rigamortace hadnt set in. so i began to think this andy dude is a nut job. why are you asking us these things we arnt stupid its common knowledge that the sky is blue and that im alive. But yet something inside of me said once again.. ASHLEY THIS DUDE IS THE SMART ONE... so i tried to keep following along once more.... As he then ask the most contraversial question yet. How do you know there is a god? ooooooo nooooo heeee diddddddd'nnnntttt! But he definately did. so in whipped out my bible and read like 20 million verses and said AHHH HAA i was right gods there im not that stupid. But he said to look at signs and reasoning out side of your bible for ways you know gods real..... and low and behold i couldnt. by this point in time i dont know whose crazier andy for thinking so deeply about alll this and posing these questions..... or me for not knowing these answers to these out there questions. So i went through the rest of my day and still to this time wondering how i know the answers. and i have come to the conclusion yeah its ok to ask those questions... but i willl for know stick to my childlike faith of just trusting in his word and loving him all the more as i go throughout my days and faith. so that all for now folks :) byee. p.s. mr. medenhall...... I STILL DISLIKE THIS WHOLE BLOGGY THINGGG!!